Panic Attack

It’s 3:02 am. Abu Dhabi

I’m outside a nightclub

feeling a bit nauseous

that makes me a bit panicky

I have no reason to get panicky though

I’m safe

I’m healthy

Maybe a bit bored

I’m doing an anti-panic breathing technique

I feel dryness in my mouth

and discomfort in my stomach

I’ve drunk only a few shots of whisky

The stomach thing should have

nothing to do with it

I’m trying to control something

that’s not under my control

What am I trying to control?

I have a friend inside the club

I don’t want to trash his good mood

with my panic attack

I can get over it

I’m still waiting for it to pass

It’s still there

It doesn’t want

to let me go

©Diaries Collection. March 10, 2024