Platform owner: today you'll be given a platform and an audience to share your thoughts. There is only one condition-you need to be as transparent as you can. Are you ready? Unnamed character: Yes, I'm ready Unnamed character: Sometimes a whole day passes by and I realize I've felt nothing but deep resentment, almost distilled, pure. Anger that feels like a heavy boulder sitting in your lungs or a sharp slap in the face. I fight tooth and nail for my daily routine. I become truly unforgivable toward anyone who poses a threat to it whether inadvertently or on purpose. I'm in conflict with everyone I know. New people who I don't know yet attract me. I know why. I can fantasize about and around them. I can dismiss the reality. I can easily assign them features they don't have. I can breathe a new life into them. Strangers are so good. As long as they stay strange and strangers. Always at a visible distance. Unnamed character living in unnamed character: What is this? An escape strategy or avoidant behavior? Unnamed character: I want to be famous. Only on one condition: I need to be able to select and approve my fanbase, my crowd. Unnamed character living in unnamed character: Avoiding crowds and being famous are on the opposite ends of the same spectrum. You know that, right? Unnamed character: Yes, I know. I want to be able to define human stupidity because I'm terribly triggered by it. I want to examine it and be more accepting of it this avocado plant is painting weird, cinematic silhouettes on my bedroom ceiling I'm being choked by the same ceiling I imagine it in my throat and nostrils it makes me suffocate so do the people working in office buildings I'm destined for a different life and I'm ready to change my geography. I can change my psychogeography if needed. I'm watching a Yale lecture on the rationality of suicide (part 2). Great content to consume before going to sleep. The video was uploaded 18 years ago. I google the lecturer he's still alive. I sigh with relief. to be continued if needed
